so I am now officially an ordained minister through the ULC. I'm really excited about this.

I'm really hoping that eventually I'll get to perform some Weddings/and or Handfastings.

And I think I've come to some conclusing as to what I'm giong to do with my life: I'm getting my Undergrad in biology and I plan to go into Midwifery. I'm not sure if I want to go straight into Midwifery or go through the LPN and RN system then go into it. hmm...

I shall decide on that.

off to do homework and such. wooooooo

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So for the past month I've been questioning what I want out of life.

I know I want a family, and children. I want to be sucessful, but in what... I have nooo idea.

I can see my self doing soo many things. I have lots of passions and I dont know which one to pursue. I was given a gift, the gift of music. Do I go after my dream or try to be a choir teacher? I love to write. Do I become an author, or teach english? Maybe be a librarian. I love biology, I like to study genetics. Do I become a doctor? Am I smart enough to become a doctor? I love politics. Do I change my major to political science and run for office? Do I become a lawyer? Am I sharp enough for that? I love religion. Should I major in religion and be licensed to deal with interfaith marriages? I love to cook so maybe I should be a chef? Or open my own catering business? I love theatre so maybe I should be a drama teacher. Maybe an opera singer that travels Europe?

Can you see my dilema? I could list so many more careers that I want to do... but which one is the right one for me? And how am I going to find which one will make me happy with out spending a billion dollars?

I know I need to take one day at a time but I want to start LIFE. I just want the world. I want to take it all on and conquer it all. So which career is going to allow me to conquer my world? ugh this sucks.

"There has never been another you.
With no effort on your part you were born to be something very special and set
apart. What you are going to do in appreciation of that gift is a decision only
you can make."
--Dan Zadra

What am I going to do with my gifts? I know its my decision, but I dont know how to make it.

I just want to be happy. I am happy. But if I want 4 kids (which I do and will have) then I need the perfect career to support them and myself. I need to be able to spend time with them. I want a comfortable lifestyle. Since I was a child I've wanted a family and I'm determined to have that and a career that not only is fufilling, but pays well.

:sigh:

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so what I hate most in life is being bored.

which is what I am now.

Summer classes in Tiffin suck when no one else is around.

and its not like I have a car (thanks little brother) to drive to go do something.

plus I'm out of money and toilet paper.

kinda pissed about that- thanks mom.

my piercing is healing. woo

I think I'm just going to sleep some more.

take a shower and do my laundry and dishes.

nothing else to do, and no one else to talk to.

toodles bitches

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